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| so yea i dunno....im in a really good mood right now....i have been for bout a week now...hehe...i wonder y?...hmmmm.....i think it has to do with a certain someone.... ....so right now im just waiting to go to work...my rents are going out of town becuz my granma fell again and she has to have a surgery to fix her arm and it sucks cuz they could possibly lose her on the table...so im a lil freaked out right now cuz yea i cant go through that again...the year anniversary of my other grandma just pasted recently and that was hard enough...i dunno...i wish i could go with but i have school and work so i cant go and see her....GGRRRRR...but other than that ive been really good...ive been in my room for like 3 hours listening to country and surfin the web.... omg....im soooooooo excited my boss is letting me teach classes for the store...i cant wait....YAY^_^...o and speaking of work i think i was being stalked at work last nite....it was weird...but o well....they left so yea...*shrugs*....so yea i really wanna see a certain someone again but yea i dunno it might b a cpl days before that can happen....i dunno...grrr i ahve to go to work in less than an hour... ...i love work but it would b nice not to work sat nights....they go by so slow....BLAH. i wish i could speak Serbian fluetently right now...im having a hard time learning the language....grrr im too much of an american...it stinks...o and if ne one is interested in a guitar let me know and ill give u the details cuz im thinking bout sellin mine....and if anyone wants to go caving soon...let me kno im trying to get some ppl together to go to Waterloo and go caving for a day.....i cant wait.....^_^ ok im gonna go now and get some munchies before i go to work....love to those who deserve it and a certain person...you kno who u r....byeness!!!! | | |
| SMILES AND MORE SMILES...THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY...  ~BYENESS!!!!! | | |
| right now i feel very alone and i just wish that i could be held and loved right now but it seems like it is so far from my reach. its not like i want to only worry bout finding a guy, but it would be nice to get back into the game and start meeting and dating people again. i dont have that much confidence in myself and my abilities. im not trying to annoy by complaining or anything but i really just need to just vent, just get it all out. im just at the point right now that im stuck i really dont know what to do most of the time. it seems like the only thing im really sure about is, is where i want to be when i start a career after i graduate from college. im so set on becoming a great geologist and it just seems like its slipping away from me. i cant explain why but its just crazy. ok im going to stop because i just dont want to finish it now...maybe later ill finish it or maybe i wont i really dont know. its not like anyone reads this anymore.... | | |
| days filled with love and happiness, nights full of passion, pleasure.
as we embrace my heart races, you hold me with so much love and passion, it over powers me.
my body becomes weak in your arms as you touch and kiss me.
you know what i want and need.
with no hesitation, you grant me my wishes.
we make love on a cloud of dreams, wishes, and fantesies.
all pain, sorrow, and evilis lost in bliss.
no words could express the feelings of this love flowing through both of us as we're united in love, passion, and desire.
pleasure fills my body and soul.
we make sweet heavenly music together as the stars sparkel in the dark sky.
with every breath that i take i am over whelmed with what is happening.
i thank you, my love, for granting my wishes and fullfilling my deepest desires.
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| ok so i really dont like my doctor right now...his solution to lowering my blood pressure was to cut my dose of my depression meds in half cuz he says that it sometimes makes blood pressure higher....and he told me if i have ne problems and my anxiety and depression get out of whack then i should call him...well im worse again...and that means that ill have to try to get back in the groove and i also have the issue that my blood pressure is better but that means that i have to change my depression meds and that means about 6 months of unstable hell....grrr...i hate this..o well not much i can do it seems like...sol tomorrow i get to talk to my shrink and then i gotta call my doctor and tell him whats going on and make an appointment....just grrr..
so yea things have been ok i guess...i mean i still dont really talk to anyone at school and im not really eating all that much any more....its not that im trying to lose weight the bad way by starving myself its just that im not really that hungry and it seems like whenever and whatever i eat whether its a lot or healthy my body does not want to agree with me on any of my food choices....im to the point that if i dont eat all day i never really notice it and i dont feel hungry....i dunno maybe it will get better once this whoole thing with my blood pressure and crazy medicine gets fixed. today has been a very blah day...after coming home and doing a few things i went to lay down on my bed with Jr. and i ended up falling asleep for a couple hours...since then i havnt really felt all that great....well im gonna go cuz yea i really have nothing else to say....love to all who deserve it....byeness!!! | | |
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